Just a warning - might be TMI all though out this post

Well, i have some fantastic news to share with you all

Looks like my prolapse is back All I want to do is cry...I had one after my first (and i was told it was pretty uncommon to end up with them after your first child), but then it cleared up by itself (maybe i did a few kegels but not very many), and i was hoping it was just the vacuum extrac and the pushing for 2 hours that did it

This time i had the perfect birth, pushed for 10 mins (4 times in total), although it was a pretty quick delivery especially due to the cord being tightly around her neck 3 times.. I ended up with a smaller first degree tear than last time (i actually had 2 last time, in different spots).

Anyway, I'm not like 10 days after birth and 2 days ago i thought i would check how my stitches were, as bits of them were beginning to fall out. And then i saw i think a bigger prolapse than last time. There is like no hole there (sorry for TMI), its like covered by i guess part of the vaginal wall ??

Funnily enough, i had no heavy sensation like i did last time. But then i was walking slowly around the shopping centre with DH today for like 30 mins, and i started to get a bit sore and achey down there. I also def. had a sensation, almost like i had a tampon in that wasn't in far enough, if that makes sense? And it felt irritated, i guess because bits that are normally inside were touching/rubbing against my pad??

Do i bother to go to my GP, or just wait for my 6 week check up with my obs (for him to say again, do pelvic floor exercises and I'll fix it when you have finished having kids!). I think i might start using my epi-no to try and make sure I'm doing them properly, and in a few weeks I'll head over to my physio.

I'm just worried it will get worse and worse with each kid - which scares the hell out of me! My mum needed major surgery to hers (after only 3 kids, and i want 10!), they wanted to do a hysterectomy, but she ended up just having it stitched back in place. Even when I've finished having kids, i still want my uterus!

And I'm worried it will be sore and achey and uncomfortable for the next 20 years until I've finished having kids.

I wonder if its because in general physically i had a really quick delivery and have been feeling fantastic. I haven't been overdoing it, but i still have to pick up my toddler and have been running around with him and stuff. I wonder if that has had anything to do with it, or if given my history it would have happened anyway?

Ok, got to go have dinner... anyone have any advice to cheer me up??