i am going to see the physio for the first time today, and after that my obsetrician, to hopefully get a referral to get some tests done to see exactly whats wrong.... i am not convinced its going to get better on its own, so i want to get all the groundwork done now so that if i end up having surgery to fix things, i am not waiting months and months to have the tests done and all that... i want to have it all happening now, so that when the time is right, as in, when enough time has passed that they tell me if it was going to get better it would have by now, then i can go straight ahead with surgery...

we have a family holiday booked with another family from my mothers group next month to queensland, and i can't really see at the moment how i can possibly go... i wouldn't even last the trip in the car to the airport without wetting myself.... i don't see how i can go on a plane and to theme parks etc... i would be needing the toilet literally every half hour.... can't believe i am considering cancelling, but what other choice do i have.... what a waste of money too.... its seriously ruining my life right now.