I like the idea of the lessons thing.. I beleive we are held accountable.. but are given the chance to constantly learn and move forward. And also are given some leeway for not being too accountable, as we are kind of kept in the dark about things, and are kind of blindly fudging our way through life.. so there is some give and take.

I beleive in reincarnation, that we go through cycles and come back and forth (from where.. not sure on that yet...) between lives. I like to think that there can be some "time" spent between lives (in this place that I dont know what is called) to maybe learn things too... so you may die, and you may not have quite learned your lesson (coz if we all learned our lessons there wouldnt be horrible people out there and not everyone has dramatic life changing moments on their death bed where they confess all their mistakes and are suddenly a wonderful person) so there is some time in the "other place that I dont know what it is called" to have some redemption, some learning, some guidence before we enter again and take form in a life on earth. Sadly with no immediate memory of the "other place I dont know what is called" or excactly what happened there, but an essence is remembered.. and that is the path that we are set to follow for this life.. and so it goes. (Hence the blindly fudging our way.. if we could just remember and know exactly what our goals are.. it would be so much easier.. but maybe not as interesting!!!!)

There are a few flaws in my theory... the place that I dont know where it is or what it is or if it exsists is a big one.. lol and the idea that while people are learning all their lessons, why are people even now still awful people who surely havent learned anything (besides the whole no memory of the other place that i dont know what its called).. and why do really good people who seem to not have to learn anything have really horrible things happen to them???? I understand they may have to learn some things.. but it seems a bit uneven.. and I would like to think that some people out there who are horrible and in my opinion "deserve" some kind of "punishment" for the way they treat people get something, and on the same token, I like to think that the "good" people will in turn get some kind of reward. But I dont really know who desides who gets what, and when....

Off to ponder some more.....