Is that perhaps why it's difficult to find information on Scientology then? Because you have to be selected before you can learn more, and that information isn't accessible to the general public?

I like the idea of the calm birth. I gave my birth partners instructions to gently correct me if I got abusive, because that's just not who I am and I didn't want that to be a part of my birth experience. I did glare at dh for making noise (his lolly bag was crackling), and shush them, but I apologised after.