i now think about being homeless MORE than dying. And being homeless, i would have to give bilby up for fostering (rather than make her homeless too).

After that, then i think about my mortality. Cos no-one else would love her/bring her up/advocate for her, the same as her own mum.

Her father is financially irresponsible, and in illhealth, so if he got hit by a bus tomorrow, bilby is not taken care of in any shape or form. That worries me. She has so little family.

i would like to get my own life insurance (for bilby once i'm gone, esp if it would pay for her to go to a decent secondary school), but each time i look into it, the salespeople are so aggressive, i totally back off.

i worry about her mortality too, this suburb used to be full of "crime not involving people", now we're getting stabbings and last week, an abduction.