Don't blame yourself, Brokenhearted. We must never blame ourselves for these things. I am so, so sorry that you lost your little one so early. I had a similar m/c two years ago and I still remember how painful and absolutely devastating it was. I ended up going on anti-depressants to keep myself from falling into the blackness. I now have a little boy who will turn 1 next month and consider myself lucky and blessed. Sending you lots and lots of healing vibes and the hugest hugs. Take time to grieve and be gentle to yourself. You've had a traumatic experience. I'm glad you have such good friends around you and I hope your DP is able to reconnect with you and give you the support you need.