Thank you all and thank you for the PM's and the contact numbers in Bathurst Mum2.

I am pagan, last night was meant to be the celebration of lights so I lit a candle for Dylan, today I will go find a little baby statue, a little fence and some flowers to plant around his grave.

I had a dream last night I had a full term Dylan in my arms, then I woke up... why haven't they created panadol for an aching heart? I guess I'm putting too much pressure on myself to "get over" it and move forward, just feel like I'm sinking further into a dark hole. How long does it take to stop aching so much??