24 hours later...

[Lisa]

Yesterday, I had my pregnancy confirmed by the Dr... I didn't think to ask the HCG levels... all I heard was positive.

Last night... I started spotting... I didn't think too much of it as I had spotting with Harrison... and he is now a healthy and gorgeous almost 8 month old little boy.
Just to be on the safe side, DH and I popped into the emergency ward of the hospital today... there they did a urine test that came back negative. My blood results were faxed through... and my HCG levels were 49... which is around 3-4 weeks... I should have been 6w6d.
Anyway.... hours later, I was having an ultrasound. The sonographer couldn't tell me much, just that it could be early days.

I went straight back to the emergency ward Dr who told me my baby has passed away, and that I will need to have a D&C.
The sonographer has recommended that I have another ultrasound in a week, just to confirm that there is no baby there.
The results say that it is either a Molar Pregnancy or a miscarriage.
I have chosen not to have the D&C just yet, but to have another ultrasound just to be certain.... though, things don't seem good.
I was told that if I start to bleed and have clots, or if I have pain, or if I have fever, or anything else that I am worried about, to go straight back to the hospital for an emergency D&C.

I am so numb right now. I only found out 100% that I am pregnant yesterday!!! and today, it looks like I'm not.
I have had a cry, and now I just don't want to leave my bed. I just want to cry and cry. I am so sad... we just started to get used to the idea of having another little bubba... we even told the older children... they also now know that the baby isn't there. I am so tired of hurting my children, I am so tired of hurting my husband. I don't think I will ever enjoy getting a BFP again. I just want to curl up into a ball and go to sleep, and avoid this awful feeling.

[Ca Plane Pour Moi]

Oh Lisa, you poor love. Hugs to you.

[Mrs Jak]

So sorry Lisa.

Big hugs to you from here too.

[Mum0809]

Lisa so sorry to hear this. I wish I lived near so I could give you a hug. The best I can do is let you know I'm senting you hugs from here and I'll be thinking of you. Don't be too hard on yourself. :hugs: :hugs:

[ElleJay]

Lisa I am so so so sorry

I know the feeling - I got a on the 27th of June this year and lost the bub two days later after m/cing naturally - If you ever need to talk to someone, I'm here for you

[Auntie M]

lisa, i am so sorry for the pain you are going through and the pain to come. big hugs to you.

[sofy]

lisa,
i'm so sorry for your loss. don't stress yourself out thinking of having upset the older children and your husband they probably haven;t thought about themselves anyway. the chances are ther are more worried about your hurt and knowing there is nothing they can do do bring back what you have lost. i know its easy for me to say but you have to be strong for all the people around you who love you. everything happens for a reason. take care of yourself and remeber there are always people here you can talk to. i found this site by accident when my baby passed away shortly after he was born prematurely. all i can say is if it wasnt for the support i got here i sure would've known what post-natal depression is....take care will be thinking and praying for you....

[DoulaRelle]

Awww Lisa I am sending huge hugs to you huni, Take care.

[missbelinda77]

Lisa, Sorry to read of your heartache. I have no idea why life is so cruel sometimes. Take care of yourself *hugs*

[MistyFying]

Lisa I'm so sorry to read this awful news. Sending you a big

[Lisa]

Thanks so much to everyone for your beautiful words of support and your kindness.

These have been the strangest 48hrs for my DH and I.

Today, we went to the hospital to request more bloods be taken, and for the HCG levels to be checked... then, I could make a decision regarding the D&C.
The Dr today seemed very annoyed that the other Dr told me that the baby had passed away, and to have a D&C. They said they wouldn't do it unless it was definite that there was no fetus there.
So, I had the bloods taken... and they called me back at 3:30pm to tell me that my HCG levels have doubled and are now 100. So, to them, it seems like it is a very early pregnancy... and that perhaps I ovulated late.
So now... we are in limbo again. Nothing is certain until there is a baby on the screen. I have to go to my GP on Tuesday and request another ultrasound for the end of the week... and to perhaps get some more bloods done at the end of the week too.

Ahhhh... this is so confusing!!! I just want to know where I stand... one minute, we are happy because we're having a baby... the next, we're crying because we're not having a baby... then, we want to be happy because perhaps we are having a baby... but we're not sure!
Has anyone else gone through something similar to this? Does anyone have any advice?
I am sooo sorry... I am just very confused right now.

[~clover~]

Wow. I don't really know what to say other than I've got my fingers crossed for you. one of my friends just found out she is pg & had an ultra sound only to not be able to find a heart beat. They are going to do another U/S next week to check again. But they are still positive. Good luck.

[cheekyfrog]

Lisa, what a horrible 48 hours for you. Thinking of you and sending you lots and lots of sticky vibes. Hope that all is okay and praying that you get the best possible news when you have your next ultrasound. The doubling of your hCG levels sounds very very positive. Crossing everything for you!

[ElleJay]

Lisa - I'm so sorry that this has happened for you lately.. This past 48hours must have been killer for you! I'm gonna be waiting here to see to find out when the results are in

[Leila]

Gee Lisa, lucky you decided to wait and didn't take that other dr advice!!!. What a roller coaster, sending you:hugs:

[Lynn]

Lisa I am so sorry that you are going through this. I hope so much that it is just an early pg and that little bean is still there. I hope you can get some answers very soon. Thinking of you

[satya]

I hope it is just a very early pregnancy and the levels continue to rise. I have my fingers crossed for you.

[Willow]

Oh Lisa hun, this is just awful. I'm so sorry you and your family are going through this.

You will be in my thoughts and prayers and I'm hoping it is just early days yet and you'll go on to have another beautiful healthy baby.