We lost our baby at 13 weeks 2 weeks ago I'm sure it was a boy. I was so looking forward to annoucing to friends at a Kids Christmas party that I had organised that I was pregnant. Instead I had to put on a brave face with one girlfriend heavly pregnant and then two others turned up to annouce that they were pregnant one due around the same time. I found this very hard as they were talking about their pregnancy and asking if I would get pregnant again given what I went through with my little girl. I'm so scared about getting pregnant again I so want to have another baby but my first baby who is now 2 years old was not an easy pregnancy and ended in NICU as she was born at 32 weeks and 3 days. I feel so alone as my friends either are pregnant so I don't want them to know about my miscarriage and my other close friend has her own issues and my other close girlfriend that I thought would be supportive and knows about my miscarriage has not contacted me and my family as my mother said to me a few days afterwards "Are you over it now". I really feel that it is a private pain. I'm lucky that I have a wonderful husband who has been through so much with our first child its just awful to see such pain on his face again. I don't know if I can go through this pain again or put my husband through it either but I so want to have another baby a healthy baby.