Thank you everyone for your reply's. Its such an overwhelming feeling to know that someone else has felt this imense grief. How on earth do we do it?? I guess the answer is "because we have to".

Each and every one of you have given me a little bit of strength to get past another hour, and i would just like to say "thank you, i have survived this day, somehow, with a little bit of help from all my BB friends"



BW - I dont know if its any help, but i found that replying to others and helptng others today, has given me something else to think of. I just spent hours on BB reading others stories and journeys.
I will be thinking of you tomorrow and praying that your caterpilla will give you a sign to let you know that your being cared for from up above.

hugs to all
treelo