big Sweetheart, it wasn't your fault and no one should think that you let them down. You did all you could, and very sadly she was just meant to be an angel. I'm sorry for your loss, it must be very tough after TTC that long. I hope you get a BFP and a baby to hold in your arms very soon
Welcome to BB too, I wish it could have been under happier circumstances, but I'm sure you will be able to find great support on here and a lotta love
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Thank you for sharing your story with us. You havn't let anyone down, please know that it wasn't your fault. Your precious Ellen will always be close to your heart.
Regards,
Dianne
Emmanuel born sleeping 24wks
Trisomy 13
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Kateo,
YOu will find some wonderful women to support you here. You can come here and talk about your little girl, vent your frustrations, your hopes and fears. I hope it helps. If only technology was advanced enough to give you the big hug, or squeeze your hand.
As the others have said, you did nothing wrong. If you haven't already perhaps you could contact your local SANDS for extra support.
I have been in touch with Sids in ACT. They are very helpful but nothing actually makes me feel OK.
I just seem to feel worse every month as I get older and I am again not a mother.
I went shopping today and bought light fittings for the nursery. I was going to buy them once my baby was born and I knew if I had a boy or a girl. I got them anyway today.....totally stupid thing to buy something special for a baby I don't even have!
Oh hun I wish I could take some of your pain away for you.... I wish I had some wise words to help comfort you..... Have you been in contact with a counsellor??? You didn't let Ellen down hun.... What kind of light fittings did you buy? Its not silly at all babe ......
I was in Aldi doing the groceries and they had these VERY cute lamps and light shades with little dogs all over them. Not too girlie or too boyish but very cute dogs. Since I only have dogs and horses as my "kids" I thought it was fitting to buy them.
Maybe one day a new baby will enjoy them anyway. I got a cute little lamp and a lihght shade for the ceiling.
Thanks to all of you for your kind words. I just can't stop feeling like it's my fault I let Ellen die. I should have been more push when I was worried about her not moving I guess.
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Sweetheart, it wasn't your fault and no one should think that you let them down. You did all you could, and very sadly she was just meant to be an angel. I'm sorry for your loss, it must be very tough after TTC that long. I hope you get a BFP and a baby to hold in your arms very soon
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