BW - when i read your first post from today, my first reaction was "what a pr*ck!" (and that was polite compared to what DH said) - but reading it again, i think i'm in a similar mindset to Willow - there are a hell of a lot of emotional issues that you need to be able to deal with, as well as the physical, before you can move forward fully. YES, getting a consultation with Dr S is a big step, but i believe this in itself is more for the mental than the physical - there's a large chance nothing more will come out of this appointment than for you to become comfortable with the fact that there's nothing physically that you can change - and that is a very important step to your healing and moving forward to your next FET.

i agree with the others that your FS has a terrible bedside manner, and he could have worded things a whole lot better than he did, but i do think he has your best interests at heart and wants to help you through this

i hope with all my heart that you can find a counsellor who shares your faith and can be the support you need through this. as much as we're all 110% here for you, we're not professionals, we don't necessarily share your faith - and we can only be a sounding board for you.

there is so much more running through my head that i want to say right now, and i want nothing more than to make this right for you - you are such a beautiful and strong person, and it breaks my heart to know how much you're hurting hun. i just don't think i can spit out my thoughts as eloquently as willow has!

take care hun - you know where i am if you need to talk - about anything

BG