hi,
you made an incredibly hard decision and I have the upmost respect for that. you are griveing for a baby and so am I. I had an early miscarriage, and that is so different that i can't imagine what you are going through, but I was seriously considering termination and I understand even the smallest level of that experience. Nooone here judges you and it is a fantstic place for love and support, at least that is what i have found in my experiences. After my 'loss' i have to believe that when the time is right my little soul will come back to me, if that is never possible then i will see them elsewhere and we will be together. Bask in the love of your little girl and be well, hopefully with time your heart will heal, but you, or I, need never forget. I just think often we can be so hard on ourselves, when we make the best decisions we can with the information we have available. Love and hugs and bubbles, and most of all strength. The women here are amazing and I hope you find the support you need to begin to feel strong again. xx