Hi, I'm new here

[ThrashGoddess]

I've never posted on a forum like this before. After reading a bit, I'm suspecting this is not a US site ... Australian, perhaps? I live in Austin, Texas.

My loss happened this past October. I had a hard time with it for weeks, and then felt like I had regained at least some semblance of normalcy in my life, although the pain never completely went away. The past couple of weeks have been especially difficult, at least partially because my due date (May 17) is approaching ... and partially because of friends' new babies. We've been TTC for a couple of months, and now I'm 10 days late. Three negative pregnancy tests. I wish I would just start so I can track my ovulation again and maybe this time ...

I have a son, almost 6, who is the light of my life. He wants a sibling. He and my husband keep me afloat. Hardest part of our loss in October was telling our son that his baby brother or sister was no longer in my tummy.

I don't talk about it. I told our son, but my husband shared the news with our close friends and family who knew about the pregnancy. He told everyone not to talk about it, so now no one does. I preferred that at first, maybe now not so much. He cracked a joke about D&C the other day. It stung. I can't joke about any of this. He's been wonderful and supportive, but acknowledges that the loss wasn't the same to him.

I want to tell my story, but this is already so long. Next post I will. Thanks for reading.

xo

[Floweryfields]

Firstly hi and welcome to this site - yes we are Aussies! May I say how sorry I am for you loss - you will find lots of support on here from people with similiar experiences.

[Razzberry]

Hi ThrashGoddess - I lost my baby in Oct last year too and had a D&C. My EDD would have been 21st May. I am so sorry for your loss. Have you asked the doc about what might be going on if your 10 days late? This forum has helped me alot. The women on here really know how how it feels to have loss, no matter how far along you were. Big Hugs.

[Lulu]

Welcome to BB!
Sorry about the circs though, you will find plenty of support here. I don't know what I would have done without this place after I had a loss xoxoxoxo

[diannescruffy]

Hi and welcome to BB. I'm so very sorry for your loss. I hope it helps you telling your story here to people who truly understand. I don't think the pain ever goes away, we just learn how to deal with our grief. Your precious angel will remain always close to your heart.

Regards,
Dianne

[Muffy]

Hello!
Welcome to BB! yes we are aussies!!! well most of us are!
Im very sorry to hear about your loss, there is lots and lots of support on here.
xx