Ivf miracles

[shell74]

Hi all..
I just want to say i really feel for those that had lost babies after doing IVF.
I done my IVF in 1999 and lucky for me i got pregnant the first time and my levels were very high..i was very excited knowing everything was going good...i had 2 eggs put in me.
At 6 weeks i started bleeding and got rushed into lingard to have an ultrasound and got told that i had twins but one had miscarried..i..but as she was moving the ultrasound around she noticed another heartbeat ..i actually had twins alive inside me..but i had miscarried one of the eggs..
I know it was gods way of telling me its safer to have a pregnancy with just 2 instead of 3 babies as i was a very small build ..I did everything right in my pregnancy but unfortunately i gave birth at 30 weeks,my boys were only 1180grams..they were in nicu for 3 months .3 days after coming home my little Jack stopped breathing ,he was blue..it was a lucky thing because he was asleep in the loungeroom and we were out the front waving relatives goodbye who had been looking after them why we did some shopping..we walked inside and started chatting about what we brought and something made me look over at the babies and thats when i noticed him blue..my husband picked up his limp body and started cpr...ironicly we learned to do that only a week before.
He wasnt improving and the ambulance seem to had been taking foreva to get to our house and i was crying hysterically ..when they arrived they hooked him up with oxygen..i help it over his nose until we got to the hospital..We got told that he was close to death..but he got through it and had to have special tests for the next few months incase he had brain damage...i tell you it is the worse pain ever to go through that but to imagine how someone feels when the babie sadly doesnt make it hurts me deeply inside.
One week after that the other twin did it as well so both of them were back in intensive care for 2 weeks..
I still live them moments in my head and think about how close we were to sids.
my boys are now 8 and are going well..they have had quite a few problems but they will always be my miracle babies..
I think alot of things that happen happen for a good reason..life is full of ups and downs and it makes us stronger to get through the next hurdle in life..
Sadly for me i had to have a hysterectomy at 26 and i grieve everyday that i cant have a baby..i look at pregnant women and nearly breakdown..its tough ..
Michelle

[MsPink]

Thanks for sharing your story Shel.
I am so glad for you that you got your 2 miracles..and thankyou for understanding how us IVFers feel..it's a very very long, hard, sad road..

[tiggerlinda]

Shel your boys for me

I loved reading a stroy of two mircles who fought to stay make my IVF journey have another plus

[CeCe]

What little battlers your boys and your family are. I'm glad it turned out the best for the boys but I'm also sorry that your wish for more babies is unfulfilled. That wanting a baby is a hard emotion to deal with when it goes unfulfilled and it seems like everyone around you is pregnant

[diva det]

shell you story is amazing and your words are touching
i lost my IVF bubba at 12 weeks last year- my due date is in a couple of weeks and finding it tough at the moment. its comforting to know that others care.

i too had success with IVF twins so count my blessings everyday, but it is still so hard not to be able have the children that we so dearly want
take care
odette

[Possums]

Thanks for sharing that story with us.
I recently suffered an ectopic pregnancy and lost my right tube and my left one is damaged, so we have been advised to try IVF. We are seeing an IVF doctor for our first appointment in early April. I am finding it a difficult time, waiting, waiting, to be able to move forward in some way, and I am also scared of what lies ahead, but taking steps towards having another baby is what I really want to do.