susanw ,so sorry about your loss it brings back memories of the loss of my own first child also in sept this year and also the tears started again after i read your post. The pain is so incredible and excruciating that you think it will surely not get better , you are a strong ,brave and courageous woman dear wonderful mum to precious lauralyn so keep hanging in there and take it one day at at time another baby would come not as a replacement for our lost precious one but as healing for our souls.Take care of yourself love God is with you