Unlucky 13

**ladybirdflies** · April 5th, 2012, 11:31 AM

it's me, back here again..... I had a loss in December at 9weeks, I found the experience life changing and felt like I learned alot about myself and other women. I was pregnant again after one cycle, it was different, the symptoms really strong, the MS oh my word!! My body has changed, I have so many veins, my brea$sts are blossoming by body blossoming, yet here I am at 13 weeks, in shock, trying to find the strength to get through another loss. I started very very light spotting yesterday, and went for an US the image is still so raw in my head.

My DH is away, I am here with my children pulled between hollow and mother, and waiting waiting waiting... will it be today that is passes, will it be in two weeks time... staying present to each feeling as it rises, feeling hope and strength and then hitting the floor again... I guess I will look back here one day and see what I learned the second time round, but right now in this very moment I wait......

**FabFiona** · April 5th, 2012, 11:32 AM

I'm so sorry

**Miss.September** · April 5th, 2012, 11:33 AM

I'm sorry honey. Take care

**Stevie** · April 5th, 2012, 11:35 AM

i am so sorry

Sending you strength and support

**Kazzo** · April 5th, 2012, 11:36 AM

I am so sorry hun, sending you some strength for the hard times.

**hipmummy** · April 5th, 2012, 11:36 AM

I am so sorry.

**Maruschke** · April 5th, 2012, 11:37 AM

so so sorry.

**KitFaerie** · April 5th, 2012, 11:37 AM

I'm so sorry. I'm sorry it happened the first time and I'm sorry it's happened again. It must have been such a shock, it's a forever kind of change

Be kind to yourself as you say goodbye to your very loved baby. Thinking of you xo

**diannescruffy** · April 5th, 2012, 11:53 AM

So very sorry.

Regards,
Dianne

**Aussiegirl777** · April 5th, 2012, 11:58 AM

I am so sorry.

**OceanPrincess** · April 5th, 2012, 12:36 PM

LBF, I'm so very sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you, my eyes brim with tears. I wish there was more I could do but please know you are surrounded by love right now, from near and far.

**Diamond Girl** · April 5th, 2012, 01:32 PM

LBF - I am so so sorry for your loss.

I am in tears for you right now, knowing how completely unfair it is to lose another much loved, much wanted baby.

I hope your DH gets back soon. Its hard to be on your own during this.

Fly free little angel xx

**Porsche** · April 5th, 2012, 02:07 PM

I'm so sorry you going through this. It's not fair. Why do bad things happen to good people? If it's character building then I think we've all suffered enough.