it's me, back here again..... I had a loss in December at 9weeks, I found the experience life changing and felt like I learned alot about myself and other women. I was pregnant again after one cycle, it was different, the symptoms really strong, the MS oh my word!! My body has changed, I have so many veins, my brea$sts are blossoming by body blossoming, yet here I am at 13 weeks, in shock, trying to find the strength to get through another loss. I started very very light spotting yesterday, and went for an US the image is still so raw in my head.
My DH is away, I am here with my children pulled between hollow and mother, and waiting waiting waiting... will it be today that is passes, will it be in two weeks time... staying present to each feeling as it rises, feeling hope and strength and then hitting the floor again... I guess I will look back here one day and see what I learned the second time round, but right now in this very moment I wait......
I'm so sorry. I'm sorry it happened the first time and I'm sorry it's happened again. It must have been such a shock, it's a forever kind of change Be kind to yourself as you say goodbye to your very loved baby. Thinking of you xo
So sorry to hear of your loss . Please be gentle and kind to yourself. Every emotion you feel is valid and normal, dont try to fight it, ride with it, its very important to not supress any of it xxx
I have been there and know how you are feeling. It is just totally and utterly heart wrenching. Please message me if you want to talk xxx I am so sorry.
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........... life can be so cruel xoxo
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