Just to introduce myself, I've had 8 pregnancies, which includes 3 live births (thank you, God), and about to have my 5th miscarriage.
Basically, a scan yesterday (at 5 weeks 3 days) showed an empty sac, and my fertility specialist told me to stop the progesterone I'm taking. So I did that last night and now I just wait. I think I might be in for the long haul, however, because it usually takes me a few days after stopping progesterone to make my periods start.
Emotionally, I'm very numb, but I still can't help but wonder why people on drugs, etc, manage to have healthy babies, but my husband and I lost five.
On the other hand, I still have my three happy healthy kids and with each m/c I become for grateful for them.
I am so sorry to hear of what you are going through.
I lost one bub at around 6 weeks a couple of years ago, and that was painful enough.
I can't begin to imagine the pain you must be feeling going through it for the 5th time, it's just not fair.
Please take care of yourself
xxx
I just wanted to send some really tender, loving vibes your way.... be extra kind to yourself.... try not to focus on what isnt, focus on what IS! (and i know it is alot easier said than done)
((((((((((((((((((((((((( hugs for you ))))))))))))))))))))))))
I woke up this morning at 3:50 with a sensation like an iron band around my pelvis. I was actually feeling rather serene, and I thought--this is it. But despite cramping on and off all day I haven't actually started bleeding or anything.
We told a couple close friends (who know about our previous m/c dramas) that we were expecting again. I've started un-telling them.
I so appreciate everybody's support. I don't know how women coped with m/c before there was any such thing as internet message forums and support groups. Especially since it used to be taboo to talk about obstetric loss.
I started brownish bleeding/spotting last night, and I'm crampy. The fact of the miscarriage is starting to become real for me, and I just feel very raw, emotionally. Then I went for bloods and found out my hcg is continuing to rise--it's from the sac, and it's called a chemical pregnancy (I really, really hate that phrase). So I have to go in tomorrow for more bloods and another u/s.
I'm still really tired and have no desire to do anything. I'm also finding it very hard to concentrate on task or on things people are saying to me. DH is used to it, so he doesn't get impatient. But I don't want to be around other people acting weird. But tonight is my kids' school Christmas pageant, so I don't have much choice. I"m going to try to find a seat in the back...
I went in for a 11 week scan, and the result was no fetus or heartbeat, just an echo. My doctor sent me for 2 blood tests (which I deciphered from his scawl to be a HcG test) and told to ring to receive the results. I was given the figures by a receptionists (660, 350) and told to ring the next morning to talk to the doctor. The nurse rang me instead and passed on the message from the doctor that "its not looking good" and if I hadn't started to spot within 2 weeks to come in for a pregnancy test. My body is showing signs that the pregnancy is over - why would the doctor not come straight out and tell me the same?
What kind of tests / procedures have other people had following a scan showing that the fetus hasn't developed?
With one of my MC my HCG was not lowering fast enough so my FS requested a D&C to remove any remaining pg as this may cause an infection if left too long
with all either MC my HCG was tracked until it returned to 0
I was just thrown by the lack of information from the dr's - I've picked up more information reading these forum pages. (This is my first IVF cycle/pregnancy/MC)
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