I so appreciate everybody's support. I don't know how women coped with m/c before there was any such thing as internet message forums and support groups. Especially since it used to be taboo to talk about obstetric loss.

I started brownish bleeding/spotting last night, and I'm crampy. The fact of the miscarriage is starting to become real for me, and I just feel very raw, emotionally. Then I went for bloods and found out my hcg is continuing to rise--it's from the sac, and it's called a chemical pregnancy (I really, really hate that phrase). So I have to go in tomorrow for more bloods and another u/s.

I'm still really tired and have no desire to do anything. I'm also finding it very hard to concentrate on task or on things people are saying to me. DH is used to it, so he doesn't get impatient. But I don't want to be around other people acting weird. But tonight is my kids' school Christmas pageant, so I don't have much choice. I"m going to try to find a seat in the back...