Hey Bonnie, I miss my little boy as well, although you had 20 weeks on me, I can't even imagine losing a full term baby.
What did you name him? How much did he weigh?
We named our Bub Jayvan, which in latin means Angel. And he weighed 250grams and was 15 cm's long, which I'm told is long for 18 weeks. His dad is 6foot2inches so it's no surprise really!
I remember after he was born I was completly fascinated by his face, it was perfect, and he had the most gorgeous little button nose I have ever seen. He had tiny weeny little fingers and toes with even tinier finger and toe nails.
I'm glad that you held your little boy, that is one thing I will always regret, I never held Jayvan. i just looked at him all rapped up in a tiny blanket. I wish with everything I have that I had given him a big cuddle before he got taken away, but at the time you just can't really think straight, and I know in my heart I did as best as I could.
I hope you have a speedy recovery from the birth, and there are amazing ladies in BB who will always offer you a shoulder to cry on, and will drag you up when you are at your lowest. I don't know what I would have done without them!
Sending you, your DH and your boy lots of love xx