My JellyBean has flown away

I thought I was 10 weeks - have had plenty of symptoms - but no heartbeat could be detected and JB had stopped growing at 8 weeks.

I have a d/c tomorrow and I'm a bit scared, I've never had any major medical procedures before. I know I could wait and see if JB passed naturally but don't think I could stand the wait.

I already loved this little baby so much. Had so many plans, hopes, dreams. I was looking forward to another birth, breastfeeding, everything. It doesn't feel like my life...

I love you JellyBean - I will always remember you xxoo