Oh my darling I am so sorry...

Tears are falling reading your post - and knowing so well how painful it is to go through the loss of a baby. I too have those indellible images in my heart - and that willing to see the reassuring flicker.

It will be difficult but you will get through this.

Usually my love when you get to the hospy they will put a pessary into your vagina to press up against your cervix to help soften your cervix. You need to have someone you love there to hold your hand.

An hour or two later you will go down to theatre where they will put a bung in your hand. Then they will sedate you and you will go to sleep.

When you wake up it will all be over. You won't have too much pain and you will have some bleeding for up to 2 weeks afterward. Most times you can go home the same day.

Just know that you will get through. You will smile again and someday the pain will not be as raw and horrible as it is today.

Fly safely little baby...