Manda - my heartahces with your loss and grief. Your precious little Ella knew she was loved and loved so completely , and now she is always with you loving you back, just close your eyes and reach out with your heart and you will find her there.

Grief is a tough journey and I hope you are finding a way through. As Inanna said, you will get through this, even though it doesn't feel like it right now. Don't aim for there, but just each day as it comes, or even each moment as it comes. Time doesn't heal, but what it does do, is let you incorporate your feelings and experiences into the person you now are.

If you have questions, don't be too afraid to ask them.

Go gently.