My Story

fluffybird · March 12th, 2008, 03:59 PM

I had 2 miscarriages with my ex-partner of 12years and since we have parted he has a little girl with his new partner.
I have married a wonderful man and I found out I was pregnant in 2006 we were so excited but I lost my baby at 7 weeks. In 2007 we went to Bali for our honeymoon and while we were there I had another miscarriage, I didn't even know I was pregnant so I don't know how far I was.
Then January this year I found out I was pregnant but I had another miscarriage at 6 weeks. That was my 5th I can't get past 10 weeks,I have had tests done but everything is fine. The doctors say keep trying but it's so heart breaking, it's hard not to blame my self. I don't think I can go through another one but I want a baby so badly.
I hope I can get some comfort for you kind people here, I am so depressed at the moment and my husband is so understanding.

**Kitty's Mum** · March 12th, 2008, 04:34 PM

I am so sorry you have had to go through such loss. Miscarriages are so hard to deal with especially as it is so hard to understand, even those who have had miscarriagescan't explain the feeling.

I had several miscarriages before I had my first many years ago then I had another after my second child was born. Please try and stay positive, there is alot of hope still.

Stay strong and keep looking forward. I'm sure the baby your meant to have is waiting and it's just a matter of time.

**Angel Babies 3** · March 13th, 2008, 12:20 PM

Let me say how sorry I'm to read of your losses. I know the pain you are feeling. I hope you can find some comfort here. There are so many wonderful women on this site and everyone is here for you that I hope you won't be feeling too lonely for long.

Hugs to you,
Debbie

fluffybird · March 13th, 2008, 01:20 PM

Thankyou Kitty's Mum and Angel Babies3 for your kind and thoughtful words it's good to hear from someone who understands. My husband wants to try again but I don't think I can it's so hard.
Again Thankyou.

**Mrs P** · March 13th, 2008, 01:23 PM

Fluffybird have you thought about using some traditional chinese medicine to assist in holding onto a precious bub full term? Lots of bellybelly girls use acupuncture and chinese herbs to help them fall pg and stay pg. Might be something to think about. Big hugs to you.

**Lisa** · March 13th, 2008, 03:21 PM

I am so sorry to hear about your losses.
Thankfully you found bellybelly, everyone is so supportive here, it reallt does make you feel not so alone, and can help you get some answers and advice.
Please remember to be kind to yourself... remind yourself that you WILL have a healthy pregnancy with a gorgeous little bubba to take home one day

**jen805** · March 26th, 2008, 02:39 AM

It's stories like yours that help me to cope with my pain. I'm so sorry for your loss, and my prayers are with you. Hoping you find peace...

~louise~ · March 27th, 2008, 12:40 AM

hey im new to bb but i just wanted to say i know what your going threw.
i had 9 misscarridges and then an ectopic before i got my first baby.
we found out at 16wks that our baby had some problems but didnt know how bad it was until she was born .my daughter is now three and is still vetilated overnite she has no stomach muscles and has an ng tube in her nose to wind her and give her an overnite feed.she also has a trachyostomy which needs suctined and changed frequently.when my daughter was 3 months old i found out i was pregnant again but this time everything went fine and i had a healthy little boy 2 wks after aleshas first bday.we were told that the misscarridges were just one of those things which hurt me because i thought i was doing something wrong. i even told my husband to go and find someone who could give him what he wanted but he told me not to be silly.
im just glad i got my 2 now i wouldnt change them for the world.

**jen805** · March 27th, 2008, 02:28 AM

louise--Wow, 9 miscarriages? How truly terrible! I've had a total of 4, and I thought that was bad. Sorry for your losses, but very happy for the blessings you do have! My Dr. told me that had I not m/c, my child probably would've had some severe health problems, and I should feel grateful that I don't have to endure that or put my child through that. A child is a blessing no matter what... I'd rather have my child with problems, than to suffer the loss of the m/c. Is that selfish of me? I don't know...I just miss being pg!
Thanks, louise, for your story.

~louise~ · March 27th, 2008, 03:45 AM

jen805- i dont think its selfish i feel the same way.

dont get me wrong it is hard at times caring for my daughter but watching her getting stronger over the years has been great.you can do more once they are out than you can when they are in.