Sparkles

Sweet blossom, so much heartache. I too am a recurrent m/c patient, but very different circumstances to you. I am in such awe of your strength and determination. It does take such courage to try again, because for recurrent m/c ers, there are no happier endings, only heartbreak. So to try again is to well and truly accept the prospect of facing more heartbreak.

I don't know what I'd do. Only you and DH can make that decision about whether you can face more heartbreak.

My DH and I have decided to TCC again, and we have been blessed with the bittersweet blessing of a bfp. I am excited, don't get me wrong, and as much as I try to put on a brave face, fear of another heartbreak is my constant companion, but you know what that's like.

Hey, but just on aside. I am adopted and it is a true blessing to me. I know that I am loved and that somewhere out there, someone once had to make a very difficult decision, to put their precious child up for adoption, and I would imagine it's a decision that they would still think about. It's only through this journey of m/c that I truly appreciated that the decision to adopt may have actually been hard rather than just pure convenience. I deeply honour the decision that was made to adopt me, and am blessed to have been adopted by some truly loving and dedicated parents who gave me every opportunity that they could. BTW from my earliest memory I have known that I was adopted. I have a friend who is adopted and she always knew too. I have another friend who was told when she was 13, and the poor girl slid into depression for a number of years. I don't know what the "experts" now recommend, but from my own experiences, knowledge, obviously at an age appropriate level, right from the start seems to work better.

Good luck with your decision. I think I read you were going to give TCC a try. Good luck, but also god luck with your adoption process.

God speed to you.