you need to talk to your sister about her baby and how she is feeling...

my sister gave birth to my 2nd nephew the day after I had Katy at first it was so hard to want to hold him I met him when he was 2 weeks old, my sister handed Isaac to me and everyone left the room, I cried I smiled I laughed...and cried some more but that moment made me realise I can't punish those who are still here with what I had lost...