Thank you to you both for the hugs and the kind words Enchanted. It just feels better to put something into words on how I am feeling today. No doubt I will have a really good cry at some point. Makes it hard though when the day your angel bub was meant to be born you get AF with cramps that felt like labour pains this morning. Life can be so cruel sometimes, but I have to keep my chin up and soldier on for my DF and the wonderful DD I already have here with me and I love to bits.