Our Matilda Bear...

[Inanna]

I am so very sad to read of Matilda's story and the sad loss of your baby girl... The pain is unbearable I understand, trust though my love that in time it will be more bearable & you will get through this time.
We are here to support you - there are many of us who have lived through similar stories. Lean on us.

Fly safely Matilda...

[Winter]

I'm so very sorry for your loss

[Turkish Delight]

RIP little one. Mummy and Daddy love you.
Take one day at a time.

xxoo

[sushee]

L,

if you ever need someone to talk to, you know my number. Anytime, night or day.



J

[cindyb]

I am so sorry for your loss!

I have to welcome you to BellyBelly though - I came accross BB after my misscarriage and I can tell you now that the support and information I received from the BB members is what got me through such a dark time in my life. We are all here for you 24/7 there is always going to be someone on here to 'talk' to.

[Correy]

I am so deaply sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter.. My thoughts are with you xo

RIP Matilda Bear

[Samcougar]

I'm so sorry for your loss my thoughts and prayers are with you and your DP
Rest in Peace little one.

Bec

[lanabear81]

Hi Everyone,

thanks for your kind words.. i am feeling better today - after i posted on here yesterday i had a good cry and then felt strong enough to start letting some of our extended family and friends know what has happened..

i have also decided to make beanies for the prenatal loss service at the hospital who did such a good job looking after Matilda once she was born..

i suspect she got the last available beanie and i know how it made me feel better to see her wearing the little donated clothes.. unfortunately my knitting skills extend to beanies and scarfs so thats where im going to start!

thanks again everyone
xx

[diannescruffy]

Hun what a beautiful idea in making the beanies for the prenatal loss service at your hospital. It is such a lovely way to be able to give back something for the care that was given to your precious angel. Glad you are feeling a little better today. Take care of yourself.

Regards,
Dianne
Emmanuel born sleeping 24wks
Trisomy 13

[Snacks]

I am so sorry for the loss of precious Matilda. I hope you find the support you need here.

[Jahzara]

I am so very sorry for your loss xxoo

[luna moth]

I'm so sad to hear about the loss of your precious little bundle. I hope you got to have some wonderful time with her before you had to say goodbye.
The support on BB is massive and will hopefully help you through the hurt.
All the very best for your healing journey.

[Isadora]

I'm so sorry for your loss of Matilda xox

[lanabear81]

ty again for your kind words..

i feel a little better everyday.. still not sleeping very well though..

I have a question im hoping some of you may be able to give me an idea.. my DP is coping in the way men cope.. but i know he's just as upset as me.. he was really looking forward to having his little girl..

i dont know what to do about fathers day.. usually he gets a present from the fur babies.. but Matilda is very much our little girl and so i think that we should do something for fathers day.. i dont really want to go somewhere where theres heaps of kids running around but i dont want it to be a sad day..

any ideas on how we could celebrate the day would be appreciated..

hope you all are well..
LB

[bookworm12]

Lanabear, perhaps you can have a nice brunch at home if you want to avoid crowds with children present. Depending on how much you enjoy doing crafts, you could make a shadowbox or something similar for your DP with items that can help remind you of your precious Matilda. Scrapbooking kits have neat pictures and lettering, too.

I can relate to the sleep deprivation. I'm still not sleeping well myself since I lost our first pregnancy about a week ago. My thoughts and prayers are with you and all the mothers here who have experienced losses--take care.

[mrsmac]

So sorry for your loss.

[lanabear81]

thanks bookworm.. brunch sounds like a good idea..

im in the midst of making a memory box for all Matilda's special things that we got her.. but its a slow process.. because its not something i've done before but also because its a reminder of why im making the box..

sorry to hear your not sleeping either.. and i am truly sorry for the loss of your angel baby.. take care of yourself

LB

[tillygrace]

Three weeks ago at our 19 week scan... my partner and i were overjoyed to hear our little p-nut was a girl.. the ultrasound lady said that p-nut was small for her age but there was no indication that there was anything wrong except our dates.. given that this pregnancy was planned i knew there was no way this was possible.. in hindsight i wonder if i should have waited two weeks for my OB appt or wether i should have gone to see him earlier.. i cant help wonder if things would have been different...

up until now we had been controlled not to buy too many little things - adamant to wait until we knew wether it would be pink or blue... we only bought the things we knew wouldn't matter.. the car seat, the pram, the bassinet... we were having the backyard finished and the laundry done so the little one would have somewhere to play and somewhere to be washed...

at the OB appt... as soon as the ultrasound machine was turned on i knew something was wrong - p-nuts heart was still strong but there was next to no fluid around her.. he confirmed what i feared and booked me into see a specialist 4 days later.. he told me that there was very little chance that p-nut would be alive at the next scan... i had no idea how to react to this..

my partner was over east having an R&R break before he started his new job.. how was i supposed to tell him this over the phone...the day before he was so excited telling me how he'd bought his little girl a dress for christmas..

last monday we went to the specialist and heard the dreaded words.. i was booked in to the hospital on wednesday the 5th August where i gave birth to our beautiful baby bear... she was so perfect in every way just tiny.. the tiniest little human being i'd ever seen.. so hard to imagine... so hard to believe..

i cry every day and every night... i cant imagine there will be a day where i wont.. but i hope that there will be.. i wish the bleeding would stop and that i could get on with life.. i have no idea how i am going to face anyone.. i dont know why i feel like i have to face anyone...

this was our first pregnancy - i do have an underlying health condition but we didn't realise this could happen so far into the pregnancy.. i want to try again - not sure when.. but i am fearful of having to deal with this again..

RIP my beautiful baby girl... we will always love you...