Ava Grace born and gone to Heaven 16/3/15

[Razzberry]

I birthed my daughter yesterday 16/3/15. She was 15 weeks and 3 days. She had a massive cystic hygroma that was blocking her airway. I was so scared when I was in labour with her but the midwives and my OB was amazing, in the end she came quickly and the midwife held her in me for 15 mins until my most fantastic OB was able to come to deliver her. Unlike my 2 term births where I had epidural and felt nothing near the end this time I felt everything! Both my husband and I felt and heard the pop of my waters breaking and then I just knew when she was about to arrive. As devastated as I am I am so glad I felt every pain of birthing her as I won't have many memories but that will stay with me forever.

She was tiny, she fit in my hand and was 15.5cm long. She weighed 105grams and her head was 10cm. Her feet and hands were perfect including her teeny fingernails. Her cystic hygroma was obvious but didn't take away from her beauty. She looked like my husband as do my other kids. I wish I knew what colour hair she would have had.

I feel like I will never feel normal again as my heart is shattered and I don't know how I will recover. I miss her so much it physically hurts. I love her just as much if not more than my other 2 children and I hate seeing them grieve too.

Ava Grace you will not be forgotten.

(Mods delete if not allowed )To raise awareness of her rare condition I have started a blog which documents her life and death. It is Ava Grace - Journey with a Cystic Hygroma in Utero

[Trillian]

Razzberry, I'm so sorry for your loss of precious little Ava Grace

[nyigi]

Oh hugs Razzberry. A beautiful name for a beautiful little girl. So sorry for your loss.

[Spoons]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Fly free, Ava Grace.

[Joeve]

Razzberry the hugest hugs to you. Fly free beautiful Ava.
What a wonderful gift to have birthed her and loved her. Be gentle on yourself and may your shattered heart mend remembering what a beautiful little angel you made and set free xx

[~Gee_Whizzy~]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful angel, Ava Grace fly free sweet girl 💞

[TeniBear]

Congratulations on birthing your sweet princess I'm so sorry she couldn't stay.

Fly high amongst the stars and rainbows, beautiful girl

[kristi14]

Im so very sorry to hear of your loss. Thinking of you during this sad time. Sending you lots of strength, be kind to yourself.

[feeb]

So sorry for your loss, hugs and love to you and your family xoxox Fly Free Ava Grace.

[Manhattan]

I'm so sorry Ava couldn't stay. Much love to you and your family.

Rest in peace sweet Ava Grace xo

[Amity]

Congratulations on the birth of your daughter. Ava Grace is a beautiful name.

I'm so sorry she couldn't stay.

Fly free with the Angels, little one.

[anney]

Thinking of you and your family. Hugs

[little_O]

My heart goes out to you and your family. Big hugs and lots of tears for you.

[Mumma T]

Congratulations on the birth of your baby girl Ava Grace, i am so sorry she couldn't stay xxx

[Peace]

I'm so sorry your beautiful little girl couldn't stay razzberry. Thinking of you and your family and sending strength to you all x

[Miss.B]

Razzberry, congratulations on the beautiful yet heartbreaking birth of your precious daughter Ava Grace. I'm so sorry she couldn't stay with you here earth side. Big hugs xxx

[ElleJay]

Nothing but love and hugs for you hun - always here for you xxx

[kerbear]

Congratulations on the birth of your daughter Ava Grace, my heart breaks for you and your family with the loss of your baby girl and the grief your family is feeling. Xoxo

Your little Angel will always be in your heart.