polly's story

[pollyangel]

My daughter, Polly was stillborn on 11/02/2009, my birthday.

We were so anxious for her arrival, full of anticipation and excitement. She was 8 days overdue when I was booked in to be induced. I was placed on a machine to detect her heart rate and movement. She was not moving much but I never anticipated what this might mean - I thought babies slowed down when they were preparing to be born. I poked and prodded, encouraging her to move around. She had always been so active! With some trepidation, the doctor decided to wait and induce me the following day. I stayed in hospital overnight, I would meet my precious daughter in the morning - I could hardly wait.

I can remember the last kick she gave me just after midnight. I craddled my tummy, a tear ran down my face, so glad and relieved she had finally moved.

But the day started so much differently than anyone could have imagined. My baby had died in my tummy overnight.

Polly loved the tummy and her spirit never wanted to leave.

Almost five months on my angel and my arms still yearn to hold you. I still long to wake up to you cry, to quench your thirst and make you smile. I dream of you often....

You are forever in our hearts and thoughts. I go to work and people see me cope and smile - they think i am strong. But nothing seems very important after you have lost your baby - Polly, you are our world, the centre of our universe, even all the way up in heaven xx

This is the most devastating story I have ever had to write......thank you for listening : )