My daughter, Polly was stillborn on 11/02/2009, my birthday.
We were so anxious for her arrival, full of anticipation and excitement. She was 8 days overdue when I was booked in to be induced. I was placed on a machine to detect her heart rate and movement. She was not moving much but I never anticipated what this might mean - I thought babies slowed down when they were preparing to be born. I poked and prodded, encouraging her to move around. She had always been so active! With some trepidation, the doctor decided to wait and induce me the following day. I stayed in hospital overnight, I would meet my precious daughter in the morning - I could hardly wait.
I can remember the last kick she gave me just after midnight. I craddled my tummy, a tear ran down my face, so glad and relieved she had finally moved.
But the day started so much differently than anyone could have imagined. My baby had died in my tummy overnight.
Polly loved the tummy and her spirit never wanted to leave.
Almost five months on my angel and my arms still yearn to hold you. I still long to wake up to you cry, to quench your thirst and make you smile. I dream of you often....
You are forever in our hearts and thoughts. I go to work and people see me cope and smile - they think i am strong. But nothing seems very important after you have lost your baby - Polly, you are our world, the centre of our universe, even all the way up in heaven xx
This is the most devastating story I have ever had to write......thank you for listening : )
Last edited by pollyangel; July 8th, 2009 at 12:29 AM.
I'm very sorry that this has happened
Like Rach, i too want to say this is the best place for support & to get your emotions out when you need to, so we are here for you, never hesitate to talk to us, we know your pain and want to be there for you, i want you to know that your little one is forever at peace and loved you so much! She will be watching you & protecting you, we are here for you, xox
thank you so much for your beautiful words of comfort. Some days are fine and others the patches of grief feel as raw as it did when she died. I knew I would find help in writing out her story- it makes it feel real, it makes me cry..... and smile.
I really just love to write or say her name. Thank you for listening and reading her story.
Thank you for sharing the story of Polly.
I am so very sorry she couldn't stay with you, my heart is so heavy for you.
Please take care of yourself and do whatever it takes to help you with your pain.
xxx
So very sorry for the loss of your precious angel. I wish I had words to say to take away your pain. Please know that we are here for you and we truly understand the devastation you are going through. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Regards,
Dianne
Emmanuel born sleeping 24wks
Trisomy 13
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I dont have much to say but to let you know your have found the best forum to be on in your circumstances
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