One of the hardest things was that I had an ultrasound at 11 weeks 3 days and the baby had a strong heartbeat but when I found out that I had miscarried at 14 weeks they said that the baby had actually died only a few days after I had the ultrasound. I just couldn't get over the fact that I had been thinking I was pregnant for almost 3 weeks and my baby had died.
They should really have somewhere where people can go to deliver their angel babies that isn't right in the middle of a maternity ward I think it made it much harder than it should have been.
Morning sickness keeps getting worse so I don't know if that is good or not?
I'm so sorry for your losses hun, big hugs. I can imagine how scared you must be, but I wish you all the very best in your pg and know that everthing will most likely turn out OK. It's so hard not too worry, but try to take one day at a time and invest in the power of positive thinking! I will be trying early next month, and after a late loss myself, am scared out out of my head, but I will try to relax as much as possible as hope for the best!
It turns out I was not pregnant as I just got my period but I can't stop crying it feels like it has happened all over again. I hate thinking I was pregnant and then having it ripped away.
Hey Morgan, I'm so sorry sweetie . I know how hard it is to long for a baby, but at the same time be scared out of your mind as you've experienced the worst possible pain of losing a baby and being so afraid of it happening again. I think this fear will live with us for a long time, but such are the shoes we walk in, we are no longer naive of being pg, we are always on the look out for something to go wrong again.
I think we have to put more faith in our bodies, as I believe they are an amazing thing, and chances are next time we'll be OK.
Honey, talk to your doc next time about wanting to fall pg again, he might put you on some special pg vitamins etc. I would also very much recommend a grief councillor as they can really help you to overcome your fear of falling again, and restore your faith in yourself again! I have been seeing a psychologist since my own loss, and they are not cheap, but I know there is some great free councelling like SANDS or Sids and Kids.
Sending you many hugs and thinking of you xxx
I am sorry that AF showed up, that little bit of hoped dashed I can relate to how upsetting this can be. I am sure that you will have beautiful healthy babies one day. I agree with Beata in chatting to your doctor and seeing a councillor. I am seeing a Chinese Accupuncturist, and so far find that helpful. She treats the emotional as well as the phycical. All the best to you and take care
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. I know how hard it is to long for a baby, but at the same time be scared out of your mind as you've experienced the worst possible pain of losing a baby and being so afraid of it happening again. I think this fear will live with us for a long time, but such are the shoes we walk in, we are no longer naive of being pg, we are always on the look out for something to go wrong again.
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