HI Ladies,

its funny how the cosmic forces work - for the past 6 or so days I hvae just deleted everything pregnancy related and this morning I though ah what the hell, reading will not affect the category 15 cramps (with 10 being doubled over in agony), nor stop the blood loss, or reverse the whole thing and this is the thread that came up.

Lynn - can you please find out for me where your friend found that thing on Spirit Babies? I would really love to do some more reading into that, or anyone else who may know where I could find it

I personally find the whole heaven and hell thing a bit hard to swallow the 'alternative' makes dealing with this pregnancy not working out a lot easier for me to deal with.

One thing I have found is everyone focuses their energy and emotions on miscarriage being a 'loss', how are you expected to make a recovery focusing on such a negative thought .

I look at my 'loss' as being a blessing and an opportunity and in some ways a trial - let me explain;

1. I was told by a doctor years ago that I would never beome a mum, I have had a lot of unexplained problems with my ovaries. Now I know I can fall pregnant even if this one didn't go full term.
2. We simply were not ready, the house is in the process of having an internal face lift and the M/Bedroom has been an on going project for 4 months now and still incomplete.
3.I had just started my course when I found out I was pregnant
4. This is the biggest and most important one. I didn't want that baby initially. I wasn't expecting to fall in so quickly and really wasn't mentally in the right place. I was angry because I had brought a new horse some months ago and was looking forward to riding this spring/summer. It took me a good 2 weeks to really come round and get excited.

Why have I told you all this? No matter what you believe - put yourselves into the spirits shoes - would you feel that your mum was truely ready for you to enter her life? NO

This has given me a small insight into the world of becoming a mum. I am sooo looking forward to conceiving, I really want to carry full term, I want the opportunity to be a mum - that was my lesson!

I found a meditation tip that I though was kind of relevant - Let things happen naturally and do not try to force a certain outcome - That which is not natural will not be right.

Sorry for the hijack - love to all

Nae x x x