I have been reading these posts and it has inspired me to share my story.
Part 1:
Ever since I was a little girl all I wanted was a baby of my own. I used to work at a day care and every time moms came to pick up there children you would see the adornment on the children's faces as they ran to their mothers.I wanted that.
One month my fiance and I toyed around with the thought of having a baby so soon. We both wanted to be parents so bad. We decided not to try but not to not try. Just see what happens. Well that following month I was late. Coincidently one of friends mentioned she was late as well. That night her and her boyfriend spent the night at our house. Us girl snuck out to buy pregnancy tests. I must tell you that if you ever severely wanted to be pregnant it is nerve wracking taking a pregnancy test. I sat there and waited for almost ten minutes but nothing happened. My friend said hers was negative also. So we both threw them away in the same trash can. The next morning me friend knocked on our bedroom door. She was holding two pregnancy tests and one was positive. the only problem one was we didn't know who it belonged to. Our friends left.
i told Jared (my fiance) and he said to wait a few days. So I did. When I was aproximatly one week late I took another test and sure enough there were two bright pink lines. Jared was sitting outside as he was nervous. After awhile he knocked and asked what it said. I just opened the door and showed him. He kissed me. I felt so happy. I fell in love with this unborn baby immediately. I scheduled a prenatal appt for the following week.
Three days later I went to the bathroom and when I wiped I noticed blood. Tears started forming. I called Jared and we went to the ER. They ran an HCG test since I was so early there was nothing else they could do, or so I thought. The Dr. came in two hours later. She acted rushing and all she said was your HCG levels are 20 we will call this a threatened miscarriage.
Jared and I thought this meant everything was ok. We did not know much at the time and just thought everything was alright. I stopped bleeding after that spot.
A few days later I started spotting again. Back to the ER. This time a new DR. she came in and was very sweet, she explained the routine was to do an Cervical check and an HCG check. she was surprised the DR. before had not done this. She checked my cervix and said it was still closed. which was good. then they took my blood. while we waited we thought everything was ok. I wish I had read up on HCg levels before I came. A nurse wlked in just to check my blood pressure and without realizing I did not know anything she said sorry for your loss!!!!!
Jared and I looked at each other like what was going on? The Dr. came in and explained. she said the previous DR. should have explained that were I was at my HCG levels should have been at least in the 400 range. She explained that now my HCg levels were at 14. I was slowly having a natural miscarriage. Then she left.
Jared did not know what to say and I just looked up at the bright lights. Now I know I was not that far along, but it is hard to except these things. I felt even more stupid because I actually thought everything was ok.
Jared and I did not talk for three days.
Part 2:
After the bleeding stopped I started to feel a little better. Jared bought me some flowers and took me out to dinner. He explained that as soon as I wanted to try he was willing. I told him I wanted to wait a couple months to get my body in gear for it after the miscarriage. That night we made love but figured nothing of it because I had just misscarried a week prior. The next day I scheduled my follow up appt. with my DR. to make sure I miscarried naturally, so I wouldn't have to have a D&C.
when we arrived the Dr. Asked I first get my HCg levels down. He wanted to make sure it was 5 or lower. If it was than I did not need a D&C. When he came into the room he looked puzzled. "So you misscarried on Oct. 13th, correct", he asked. "Yes", I replied. "and now it is Nov. 8th", he smirked still puzzled. At this point Jared and I were concerned as he was acting funny. "Well it seems your HCG levels are 123", he said. i looked at Jared. I knew it was impossible that the baby just got better that meant only one thing. "It looks like you not only miscarried naturally, but now you are pregnant again", the Dr. said. I was shocked. It seemed impossible in fact even the Dr. was quite puzzled by the time line.
Now here I am 31 weeks pregnant. Still kind of shocked.
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