I have a memory box for Emmanuel with photos and clothes but I have only opened it twice in 18 months. I find it too hard to look at him. I also pray for him all the time. I hope it gets easier because I want to be able to look at his photos and momentos but I don't know why I cant. I do know that if I didn't have him we wouldn't have our beautiful 5 week old baby girl, who was born healthy and who gives us so much joy.