i am so so sorry for you loss. i know how you feel. its the hardest thing to try get your head around and hurts so bad. i blamed my self for so long after i lost my babies. all i can say it that is dose get easier as time goes bye, it seems like your the only one and no one else could eva know how you feel, but in time it dose get easier and the pain will ease, but you will have emily in your heart for ever. she will never ever be gone from your heart. it always helped me to talk about it with others, and cry. please dont blame yourself it will do your head in. just take it day by day. have you thought of having your own little service, say some words with family and friends, and maybe plant a rose bush or something in your garden, it will always be there as a small reminder of your sweet little emily.
R.I.P baby EMILY gone but not forgotten