For me the blood tests were hard, but especially the first one as I had no idea what my level would be, whether it was still high. You do start to feel like a pin cushion after a while. But thankfully now I'm onto monthly testing.
One thing you may find about explaining the PMP to people is that nobody understands it. I haven't told many people but the only person who had heard about it was a friend who miscarried and had pathology to test for a partial molar as a routine thing. I told my boss and straight away she thought it was cancer.
You may feel very alone too like you're the only person who's had a partial molar. I know I did. I don't know anybody who's had one! But when I was having one of my blood tests the blood collection lady told me they get sooo many women in for post molar follow up.
I think initally the only thing that made me laugh about the situation was that my husband thought it may have happened cos his sperm was just too powerful, 'supersperm' he called it. Aha, yeah darling
I found the initial period after the diagnosis the hardest. Sometimes I thought 'why me?', other times I was happy that I didn't need chemotherapy, then I'd be angry that we couldn't start trying for a baby.
I can totally understand you having a cry at this news. Even if you are expecting it, hearing the words is always hard. I hope your HCG comes down quickly and you are given the all-clear to TTC again soon. A friend of mine had a molar pregnancy and got so so fed up of the weekly BTs but her HCG finally came down and she now has a gorgeous little 1 year old. Sorry if it doesn't help hearing this! I just remember that when I had my m/cs I loved hearing positive stories, it gave me hope.
Keep us updated on what your HCG reading is. I will be hoping and praying for a low number that comes down quickly! In the meantime, spoil yourself a little, do something just for you, even if it is just a haircut, manicure or massage, you deserve to spoil yourself after what you have been through. Good on you for your retail therapy!
josijo - hehe on the supersperm, sounds like something my DH would say!
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Big fat lol at the supersperm
Thanks, Bun, positive stories are the very best. Seeing babies at work is actually just lovely - they are that little tiny bit more precious now, kwim? And they are never awkward with words, they never say the wrong thing, and if I want a cuddle, they're 100% there for me, no matter what.
I woke up really not feeling like I could do work, and was just a bit miserable. But after a shower, things looked brighter - seems to happen a lot lately, and I noticed it all the way through, that I felt a little bit better after every shower.
Bloody epau didn't call with my results today, even though they said they would! Conveniently, however, I managed to stay so busy that I didn't even notice until it was too late to even get through. Tomorrow, hey? Whatever - what's a day in the scheme of the next six months?!?
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