My heart goes out to you, I have been in those shoes (wondered where they got to). kidding aside it can be very hard so take care of you, if you want to cry, screem and get all snotty well go ahead and do it, let it all out. You will feel better afterwards. Even though the roller coaster ride your on can be long I hope yours is a short one and you will soon see another BFP soon.

Take care
Chris