Totally don't want that to happen either! Lol I think that's why I'm fighting so hard for it, at least if it doesn't happen I can say that I did my absolute best. I'm kinda proud of myself that I have been through this so many times before - getting the hopes sky high, and then getting them dashed to pieces - and I'm still here. I must be pretty strong when I'm not busy tearing myself down!

Thanks for the hugs