Christy the dietician is on friday, I have my friend coming with me, who's baby is also breastfed, her baby too is underweight but not as much as Felix, so it'll be a good support!

Lara and Michelle thanks for the support, I actually came really close to loosing it yesterday, I think the stress of moving house, being sick myself, and then the whole illness and feeling like a failure, really got to me, my house is one huge mess and really bugging me.

I actually had this feeling I wanted to walk out the door, it wasn't a rational thought, just an overwelmed feeling, DP was home and playing playstation, I told him if he didn't get off his butt and help me unpack I was so close to loosing it it wasn't funny. He got up and helped, and told me not to worry about the house just to get better. But I think the part of me that was staying strong just crumbled.

Today I woke up feeling much better, I decided to look into some alternative therapies since the medical ones were making me feel so bad. I am going to go and see a naturopath, and get a iridology reading to see if they can pick up anything about him that the tests aren't. It may be a point to steer the doctors in. Also bought some fenugreek tablets to make sure my breastmilk supply is totally good. I am going to start pumping extra to help increase my supply, just in case that's a problem.

also some one suggested to me that i could express for the NGT if we ended up there, so it makes me feel more positive about it!