Standing on the outside looking in...our life with autism

[*LovemyKids*]

Can't wait to read more maz you are such a brave and inspirational woman!!!

[christy]

Maz hun two things that I've thought about since reading your story and starting mine....

1) Often people don't understand the abuse, physical as well as emotional that we as parents of these super kids get. I don't think I would have understood it at all without living it. I'm not saying people can't sympathise with you, just that its hard to understand without having your child attack you physically....

2) The grieving for your child. Having to go through a grieving process in order to release the child you dreamed of, and be able to embrace the child you have.

[MantaRay]

You are so amazing Maz. Your little boy is so lucky to have you as his mummy

[Jewel]

Thank you for sharing your story.

[Nettie]

... I have no idea what to say.

Thank you SOOO much for raising my awareness. You've changed me and I thank you for it.

I eagerly await further enlightenment..

[~Saram~]

[~clover~]

I have tears! That must have been such an amazing moment!

[squidipa]

so so so touching you trully are an amazing woman maz WOW! and toy story of all things that's GREAT!
i remember getting Josiah's ears tested as we thought he was deaf and its hard work isn't it i dont blame you for being annoyed at that person i would have been to.

[Fleur]

Maz I don't know what to say...what an amazing story... what a privilege it is to hear this from you... I don't know how else to put it

[~Raven~]

I aplogised and said he was actually reaching out...the first time ever as he has autism..her comment was..im sorry he doesnt look it....WTF? I yelled at her....we'll you dont look stupid now do you!

I'm keeping that one in the vault!

[Marlene]

Oh Maz, I don't know what to say!! You truly are an amazing woman, your children are extremely lucky to have you...as you are them. They chose you to be their mummy for a reason hun.

I hope writing all this down is helping you in a big way...and selfishly I want your story to help me too. I want to understand what one of my friends is going through, with her son who has just been diagnosed with Autism, he is not yet 3 years old. I want to know how I can help her, I don't want to be one of the friends who disappears from her life.

[nanananny]

maz post #34 you made me cry, then you made me laugh, then you made me be kind of filled with wonder

[lestyrox]

Maz you're amazing. Thank you so much for sharing your story, your strength and love as a mother has really given me hope. So much of what you've said i can relate to. The grieving, the frustration and anger and feeling so alone and isolated as a parent.
I look forward to your next post. Your posts are helping more people than you realise, it is so comforting to know i'm not the only mother feeling this way. Its so refreshing to read such an honest and open account of your life and the sadness and elation that goes with parenting a child with autism.

God bless you.

[Moi]

Maz thank you for sharing your story and for being so honest. It has helped me to understand what a friend of mine is going through.

[Maruschke]

My boy smiled at me...he said mum and smiled at me. He didnt scream at me, lash out with throwing a car at me or the chair...he didnt head butt the ground..he searched for me, found me and made eye contact with me....we were winning......we were breaking through.

What a beautiful memory . Thanks for sharing Maz.

[lauren22]

My boy smiled at me...he said mum and smiled at me. He didnt scream at me, lash out with throwing a car at me or the chair...he didnt head butt the ground..he searched for me, found me and made eye contact with me....we were winning......we were breaking through.

Maz
oh im holding back the tears at the absolute love in your words. So beautifully written, thankyou, just thankyou.

[feeb]

t.when he suddly stopped rocking, turned to me, looked me in the eye and said mum. I was screaming on the inside..woo hooo and holding back the tears I simply answered him with yes Wilhelm...he smiled at me....winked and then looked back at the telly and that was that....he never rocked again from that day.
..........

OHHH what a memorable momment for you. I am crying reading this.

hugs

xoxo