its soo hard when you know what is ahead
my DS has had 3 ops and i knew what was installed before we started and just like you i was worried sick
you know he is in the best care- you just feel bad as you know what is ahead- but you know what kids are like and they take it in their stride
he is a strong boy and he will be strong through this as well
take care of you and him and hugs to you all

odette