maybe you could find an alternate for the name, like a german or russian equivlent if possible?

i have only just found out that my grandma was realy p*ssed at my mum for giving me her first name as my middle name, my aunts wont tell me why tho, just she wasnt a very happy lady with the decission. im not a fan of it, but i liked that it was hers and also mine as she passed when i was 5, but now im not so sure.
i dont why mum went ahead and gave me her name when she knew grandma wasnt happy for her to do it.
sorry im not much help.