Firstly, reading your post was like reading my own thoughts from this time last year..........so PLEASE know that all the millions of things zooming round your head are TOTALLY natural I reckon!
Lexie was totally unplanned......I was fully BF'ing Charlie AND on the mini-pill. No idea to this day how it happened, it just did. I only ever wanted two babies. Three was NEVER in my plan.
It was a huge shock to me (Charlie was only 5 months old) and it did take me a long time to get my head round the idea. I also felt a load of guilt as I felt like Charlie was "robbed" of being my baby....but honestly, he has not suffered at all!
If I am totally honest I was probably focused a lot on the "practical" stuff (ie not enough bedrooms, change of car, how will we cope ) because I was terrified of the emotional stuff.....do I have enough patience for 3, will I just totally meltdown etc etc.
Looking back, the reason I was in such as spin was because the pregnancy was not PLANNED BY ME........I am self confessed control freak.....I like to plan everything and for things to always be on MY terms.......
By the time I got to 20 weeks I was cool with it all.
And now I look at her and she gurgles at me I cannot imagine life without her. I Love her SO much.
BUT we have had to change cars (I swapped my sexy black mazda for a commodore wagon with wall to wall carseats!) and we are moving to a bigger house..(but we would have most likely done that anyways.)
In terms of meltdowns/health/coping, I swear by In-Liven.
In terms of practicalities, I just plan the week to do grocery shopping at the weekend when DH is home to look after two out of three kids........I take one of them with me...
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