Its great when you get to that point, hey Willow, when you feel like you can relax a bit and go with the flow? It took so long for me to get there - IKWYM about putting pressure on yourself. Its awesome that you're feeling more comfy now.
You're certainly right, Lesty, about it being a HUGE learning curve. I had all these ideas and fears about what sort of parent I was going to be (still do sometimes) but I was so unprepared for the emotions that would come along with it, and that my baby didn't do the things I expected her to do. I'm continuously surprised, and my job is constantly changing along with my baby!