Girls, thank you so much for all your encouraging words and support. After having read all your posts, I must say that I felt comforted. I remember crying the first day I got home from the hospital as DD was so unsettled no matter what I did. I have been feeling emotionally overwhelmed especially when she starts with her crying fit. Today wasn't an easy day either. She fell asleep at 4:30am and woke up again 6ish. It was really hard because the moment she fell asleep, I had to pump breastmilk. So of course, there was no time for rest.

Then during the day, she's up but was in a bad mood. I told myself to stay as calm as possible but I still find myself feeling down because she just wouldn't settled down. I tried to get DH rest as much as he could because he has to go back to work Monday so I really want him to be in his best shape.

Tonight, DD decided to fall asleep at 6pm after her feed. She was sound asleep and when I tried to wake her up for her feed at 9ish-10ish... it was just impossible. Am I doing the wrong thing for attempting to wake her up for feeds? Some times, she tends to sleep right through her feeding time... they always say to feed every 3-4 hours, but what if DD sleeps through that time and there was no way for me to get her up?

DH has been my emotional support these past few days because he could see that I am drained physically and emotionally. I kept telling him I feel so useless and guilty because DD could not breastfeed and that I don't know how to settle her down.

My parents are living with me right now so they could help me as much as I need. Fortunately, all the cooking, housechores are taken care of. But I still find myself not coping well. I can see that if I do continue such way, I will end up feeling depress... so, I have decided to post on BB and hear from all the experienced moms as my role model and for support.

I look forward to changes even though I still have some time to go. Hopefully, this time will go by quicker than I imagine!