Yep you'll love them both equally. It really is amazing. I find that having two has enriched my life as a mummy. When I watch them play together it makes my heart sing. When I get attacked by both of them on the floor of the lounge room it is so much fun! Having two makes the tantrums easier to deal with because you are focussing on two kids and so things that seemed major before don't seem so bad with two because you have less time to over analyse, if that makes sense. At first it is difficult trying to find a way that works best for all of you. But it doesn't take long to find your groove and once you do it is wonderful. I love it! I felt guilty when dd2 was born because I didn't have as much time for her alone but they really do adapt and it doesn't scar them for life and before you know it they are playing together. I actually think my dd1 is happier now because she's got another kid to play with rather than an adult. I'm still here for cuddles and playing too but seeing them together makes it all worth it. What you are feeling is pretty normal but try not to dwell on your perceived negatives. The real positives far outweigh these. I'm really excited for you