I think that every single mum goes through these thoughts and xycles of excitement versus worry when they are planning for or expecting another child. Absolutely it changes dynamics when you add a second child into the mix and there ar ethose moments when u just want a break but it is wonderful. I think having a second is the same as your first, at the beginning you struggle as you try to sort everything out and then you get into a bit of a rhythmn with it and its those moments from time to time, like sickness or tantrums that can ruffle our feathers a bit.

I don't think at all this means you're not ready for a second now, and definitely doesn't mean you should never have a second. You are only being a responsible mum, wife and woman when you are considering the impact having another child will have on your family, it would be very unusual and a bit worrying I think if you were going to have another child and give no thought to the impact it might have! I don't think that you'll ever get to a point where you will be able to plan having another baby without being a little anxious!

Good luck ttc!