I felt bonded to my baby the minute I knew I was pregnant which was a huge thing for me, as I never wanted to be tied down to anyone or anything, or any place! I thought at age 21-22, that I never wanted kids & when my older sister had my nephew, I loved him but I can remember thinking that if someone stole him, I'd never recognise him, as I just didn't feel very clucky about him, or take much notice...

Then O/S I realised my period was non existant & figured it was from being O/S & partying really hard & not eatiung properly etc!!!! Until I did a preg test & got a +, I instantly gave up the alcohol & cigarettes & tried being healthier... I returned home a couple months later booked in to see an OB & have an Ultrasound & saw a baby, my baby on the screen & began crying, as I had not done the test til about 13-15 wks of preg! I had been partying really hard, I was now past half way in my preg & felt instant love & potection of this thing in my belly! BUt as I was alone back at Mum & Dads I used to talk to my baby all the time...
When she was born she was delivered straight into my arms & I was just in awe of her! I think what helped was I was in the hospital in a room by myself other than a lady that was there briefly, so I had her to myself & then when we got home Mum & Dad worked so it was her & I all day everyday, all my friends etc worked so it was all up to me!

I have never felt such emotion & love for anything in all of my life before like I felt & feel for my princess, she has truly taught me so much more than I could ever teach her! I now understand unconditional TRUE love!!!